The very beginning of my trans sexuality.
As far back as I can remember I always new, but the 1st instance, when I first consciously accepted myself, was during one of the earliest conversations I can remember with my mother. We
1st
started talking about this when I was 7 years old , I don't remember
the question I asked her, however, I remember her telling me she was hoping
for a girl, but that she loved me none the less. I responded by saying
to her “ But I am a girl” I remember that was the very 1st
time I truly realized I was a girl.
(before that I
never thought about it. My mother did tell me , later on in the future, that I was feminine as a child, but I never realized it. I was just being myself with no inhibitions. It didn't sink in till I was 7 years
old.)
However, when I responded by saying "But I am a girl" during that conversation. She then responded by telling me, "no your was a boy". I just disregarded it , and kept telling her I was a
girl. There was no reason for me to say that, accept that it was true! That is the way I have felt my entire life. As time went on, I began to feel trapped in the wrong body. A male body with a female soul, trapped inside, is truly a horribly suppressing, depressing, painful feeling, that I do not wish on anyone.
But, thank God, I finally have gotten to a point in my life where I can do something about it. Which will fast forward and bring us to the present,. in my next post.. "The Present Time" coming soon.
